indeed I cried for days...

babygem0321
7/24/2009 03:30:00 PM

hehe..siguro nga dati sober ako pero ngaun hindi na ngayon.. oo di ko na iniisip or make that hindi ko na siya naiisip simple lang kasi siguro okay na tlga ko ngaun.. hmm noon pa man kahit na wala pa si LOve sa buhay ko

truly, there's somebody whom they call "somebody you will meet that is there to mess up your life"

i'm just glad it's over...

a lot of lessons learned
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etong sayo! :)
It's almost like you had it planned It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said "Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time"

And what was I supposed to do? I was stuck in between you and a hard place We won't talk about the hard place
But I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store

It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life It's how you wanted it to be It's like you played a joke on me And I lost a friend In the end

And I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away

And I'm never going back To who I was Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life That life seems like light years away Light years away

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invincible

babygem0321
7/07/2009 02:36:00 PM

“Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt
you, its like your invincible, your whole life is ahead of
you when you think you got big plans find your perfect
match, the one who completes you, but as you get older you realize its not always that easy. It’s not till the end of your life till you realize the plans you made are just plans but in the end when your looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that your leaving something good behind, you want it all to have mattered.”

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100 rules of life

babygem0321
7/06/2009 09:32:00 AM

codes for living a better, happier, more successful kind of life



Rules for You

1 Keep it under your hat
2 You’ll get older but not necessarily wiser
3 Accept what is done is done
4 Accept yourself
5 Know what counts and what doesn’t
6 Dedicate your life to something
7 Be flexible in your thinking
8 Take an interest in the outside world
9 Be on the side of the angels, not the beasts
10 Only dead fish swim with the stream
11 Be the last to raise your voice
12 Be your own adviser
13 No fear, no surprise, no hesitation, no doubt
14 I wish I’d done that – and I will
15 Count to ten – or recite ‘Baa baa black sheep’
16 Change what you can change, let go of the rest
17 Aim to be the very best at everything you do – not second best
18 Don’t be afraid to dream
19 Don’t dwell on the past
20 Don’t live in the future
21 Get on with life – it’s whooshing past
22 Dress like today is important
23 Have a belief system
24 Have a little space for yourself each day
25 Have a plan
26 Have a sense of humour
27 Choose how you make your bed
28 Life can be a bit like advertising
29 Get used to stepping outside your comfort zone
30 Learn to ask questions
31 Have dignity
32 It’s OK to feel big emotions
33 Keep the faith
34 You’ll never understand everything
35 Know where true happiness comes from
36 Know when to let go – when to walk away
37 Look after yourself
38 Maintain good manners in all things
39 Prune your stuff frequently
40 Remember to touch base
41 Draw the lines around yourself
42 Shop for quality, not price
43 It’s OK to worry, or to know how not to
44 Stay young
45 Throwing money at a problem doesn’t always work
46 Think for yourself
47 You are not in charge
48 Have something in your life that takes you out of yourself
49 Only the good feel guilty
50 If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all

Partnership Rules

51 Accept the differences, embrace what you have in common
52 Allow your partner the space to be themselves
53 Be nice
54 You want to do what?
55 Be the first to say sorry
56 Go that extra step in trying to please them
57 Always have someone – or something – that is pleased to see you

58 Know when to listen and when to act
59 Have a passion for your life together
60 Make sure your love making is making love
61 Keep talking
62 Respect privacy
63 Check you both have the same shared goals
64 Treat your partner better than your best friend
65 Contentment is a high aim
66 You don’t both have to have the same rules

Family and Friends Rules

67 If you are going to be a friend, be a good friend
68 Never be too busy for loved ones
69 Let your kids mess up for themselves – they don’t need any help from you
70 Have a little respect and forgiveness for your parents
71 Give your kids a break
72 Never lend money unless you are prepared to write it off
73 There are no bad children
74 Be up around people you love
75 Give your kids responsibilities
76 Your children need to fall out with you to leave home
77 Your kid will have friends you don’t like
78 Your role as a child
79 Your role as a parent

Social Rules

80 We’re all closer than you think
81 It doesn’t hurt to forgive
82 It doesn’t hurt to be helpful
83 Take pride in what we do collectively
84 What’s in it for them?
85 Hang out with positive people
86 Be generous with your time and information
87 Get involved
88 Keep the moral high ground
89 Have a plan for your career
90 Learn to see your community as part of a bigger picture
91 Look at the long-term ramifications of what you do for a living
92 Be good at your job

World Rules

93 Be aware of the damage you are doing
94 Be for the glory, not the degradation
95 Be part of the solution, not the problem
96 Check what history would say about you
97 Keep your eyes open at all times
98 Not everything can be green
99 Put something back
100 Find a new Rule every day – or occasionally at least

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funny :)

babygem0321
7/01/2009 10:45:00 AM

OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime



SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.



GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.



HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.



LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.



PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.



DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.



HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.



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people change

babygem0321
6/03/2009 05:48:00 PM

Do you actually think that people's attitude do really change for the better. I just don't know!

right now i think some people's attitude can no longer be taken out of their system.. okay okay i'll just go straight to the point. Do you think a flirt will always be a flirt? Cheaters will always be a cheater?

wah i'll just stop stressing about this issue now.. i just feel so pissed off now... grrr

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meet the parents

babygem0321
6/02/2009 05:04:00 PM

phew.. CJ was just able to meet my parents (well just my mom last Sunday) i was nervous. as in if you don't know it yet, di tlga ko ngpapakilala ng BF sa parents ko unless malaman nlng nila sa iba. But since things are really getting so deep and serious for me and my love, we decided to take this step and Settle ALL THE CONFLICTS about our relationship. Thankful ako sa kanya because right from the start, he always see to it that everything will be straighten up. He never let me feel so bothered about everything and he's always there to remind me that "every little thing's gonna be alright" ( oh di ba bob marley lang :P)

i won't go into details about all the things that he did for me anymore. For me every little sacrifice that he did for me will always be cherished and appreciated by baby ( and that's me).

Wala lang I just feel so contented as of now... hmmm speechless ng konti hehe

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to the next level :p

babygem0321
5/26/2009 12:48:00 PM

hiyah! back on bloggin'.

Came from a loong weekend. Still sleepy and it's queueing like hell. I don't know what to do. I got no Money to spare anymore lol.. ayaw ko galawin ang savings ko. ALmost been sick for a month that's why wala yata ko sswelduhin. SIgh!

love and i talked about taking this relationship to the next level.. aba may ganun!?? hehe

I will introduce him to my parents na ( nyee katakot) knowing my father's furious about guys. panic! panic!. Anyways i'm still happy and excited because I know we can handle this, i can handle this with great GUy by my side. We need to settle everything now because we have a lot of plans and we're trying to accomplish them as much as possible.

hmm.. wait and see :)

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It’s time to break up if you have…

babygem0321
5/22/2009 06:10:00 PM

1. An abusive relationship. If you are in an abusive relationship, get out now! It doesn’t matter if you ‘think’ you are still in love with him (or her) or ‘know’ you are in love with her. Get out now, and after, file a police report for a restraining order.



2. No trust. Trust is the most important part in any relationship, so if you don’t have it, it’s time to break up.



3. Found someone else. Although not always on purpose, sometimes we find another person — perhaps a friend or colleague who we are interested in. If this is you, talk about it. Usually, interest in someone else means you aren’t getting everything you want out of your current relationship. If talking about it doesn’t help, it’s time to break up and start something new.



4. Loss of interest. Many couples lose interest in their partner, not only sexually, but also as a friend. If you cannot talk to your significant other, it is definitely time to break up.



5. No future together. Relationships without a future is a train-wreck waiting to happen. If you want to be friends with benefits, fine. Be friends with benefits. However, if you want a real relationship but don’t have a future together, get out now.



Of course there are more reasons than just these to break up, but if one of these are a problem — talk about it if it’s not serious, but if it is, get out now. Too many teens, and even adults, stay in relationships for the wrong reason. Sometimes it’s just not to be and we need to realize what is best for us, and sometimes that is being alone… at least for now.

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stormy weather

babygem0321
5/07/2009 11:24:00 AM

One stormy Thursday morning,i was at work, I realized that I'm in deep pain LITERALLY...

My lower tummy aches and my back hurts like hell. Well as usual and as expected, my monthly dilemma's back - "DYSMENORRHEA". Yes, after a freaking PMS (premenstrual syndrome) attack, eto akot namimilipit nanaman sa sakit. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. I've been out from work and was sent back home. I miss CJ but i don't miss taking calls ( hehe).

The moment I got home I slept, woke up at 5am and read a text from CJ ... I got his car key and ID daw WTF! kawawa naman lovekoh.
plus the bad news that came from RI ( our main office in US). There'll be a shutdown daw because of the worldwide crisis. Does this smell trouble for everyone of us in APC? I don't know much about it but just hearing this makes me so much bothered. I dont want to resign and not be with him :( . I don't want to look for another job and do a lot of adjustments again.

HAY ewan ko na di na yata talaga tayo mauubusan ng problema. Thank GOD mylove is always there beside me. I always feel safe and at peace. :P

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love notes

babygem0321
5/01/2009 04:58:00 PM

I found this email from my yahoo mail account while I was browsing it while waiting for a call. I found this a very touching one.

Three fridays ago, our guru on relationships, joe d mango, read a letter to his wife on his popular radio program Love Notes. For the past 11 years, he had been giving advice to people who would write him letters about their personal problems. To the surprise of his listeners that friday, instead of reading one of his usual letters, he read one that he had written himself to his wife Bing.
Joe felt that he had to tell his listeners that even someone like him could go through a marital crisis, but that he survived it.
Hereâs how his letter goes.
In our 11 years of marriage it was just the two of us. I never had a close circle of friends and she never had one either. Life for us was just âyou and me,â day in and day out. We were literally sleeping beside each other for 11 years. It came to point that there was nothing more interesting to talk about. I was aware I was doing that but I never did anything about it. We were so close yet it seemed like we were so distant. Then came her new circle of friends.
They recently had an elementary and high school reunion. Remember her persistent suitor since elementary days? He was there. We already had four daughters and the guy had four kids of his own. They exchanged phone numbers. They started to text each other and this bothered me. a big part of it was insecurity and other part was that she once denied that she was texting the guy.
I felt bad because she started hiding things from me. Then the guy asked her if they could meet for lunch. It became a source of tension between us. I finally agreed, but before that, I told her that I felt that I was going through the same pain again. I have seen so many stories like this. If you told me the first part of the story I would already know where it would lead to.
Bing accused me of being a âknow-it-allâ person. But deep in my heart I knew where she was heading. Why would a married guy see a married girl unless it was for business or professional reasons? Finally, even if it was against my will, I drove her to the meeting place.
While I was waiting at the radio station, I wanted to call her but knew it wasnât proper. So I just waited for her to tell me how their meeting went.
When she related to me what happened I felt that she was keeping the other details. I was afraid to ask because I wasnât prepared to accept her answers. I told her that it would be best if that was their last meeting. She got mad and told me that I was starting to
control her life.
The following day, I saw a small, torn piece of paper that had the words, âlose youâ in the trash can at home. I started picking up the pieces of paper and putting them together. She had written: âFelt sad because I felt that this will be our last meeting.â âWanted to hug youâ¦â Before I could figure out what the third one was, Bing was already at my back. She wanted to get the torn pieces of paper back. She said it was private property. We decided to talk.
By then, I was able to figure out the third line: âNot sure if afraid to lose you.â She had crossed it out and beside it, she had written, âWanted to cry.â
That was what hit me. How could you lose something thatâs not even with you yet? That was a confirmation that she was getting emotionally attached to the guy. We fought because she didnât want to admit it. She said that what she had written was all about friendship and not about love. For the first time in our marriage she asked for freedom from me. For 11 years we were always together, and now this.
She had discovered her own little world and wanted to explore it. I didnât want to give it to her but finally I gave in. I told her that she could do anything she wanted and not worry about how I would feel. In fact, I told her that I was planning to leave her and kids for a while so we could give each other the chance to be alone. We decided to give the new arrangement a try.
The following day, Thursday, I went to work early and she texted me. I never answered back. When I didnât respond, she called me. She said, âIâm sorry. I love you and I miss you.â For the first time in our mariage I said, âI love you and I miss you tooâ with tears in my eyes.
I realized how much I loved her but I also knew how much she wanted her freedom. When I arrived at the station I asked for a leave. My boss advised me to think it over, but he said that he would allow me to go on leave. After letting it all out I felt relieved. It was the first time in my life that I asked for advice about our relationship.
While I was talking with my boss, a messenger arrived with 12 white roses arranged in a basket. It came from Bing. Then a text message on my cellphone came, âI know that no material things can ease the pain that youâre feeling right now, but these flowers signify my pure and sincere intentions.
Iâm really sorry. Please forgive me.â
Still, a question continued to bug me: âIâm giving you the freedom. Will you choose to stay or go on?â I read the card, and it had the answer to my question: âDear Dad, I finally realized that I made a very big mistake in choosing a newfound friendship at the expense of our long-time friendship. Please forgive me. I will always love you.â
Bing called the guy and told him that she wanted to end the friendship. He said that they could just text or call each other.Bing said that there was no need.
We had dinner and talked up to 1 am. It was like getting married all over again. We lost each other and found our way back. I do not want to go through the same pain again.
Friday came and it was the first time in the history of Love Notes that I couldnât do Love Notes. I scheduled a replay. When I was at the station at 9am, I composed a letter to Bing. I was asking myself, should I read this or do a replay? I chose to read the letter. It is not unusual to hear people say âI love you becauseâ¦,â but this story has shown us that the deeper and greater love is having to say I LOVE YOU IN SPITE OF

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